"les jours passent mais la mémoire jamais ne s'efface"

Sunday, July 29, 2007

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Musical chair...xp
Today topic its about how crazy my friends goes.Hehe this is not report,news or anything its just about me at my friends party.This party darn funny so feel like writting about it.xp

Reach Vino house already then lots of people reach already.Reach there also kinda late already 8 something.Give her her present(buy at memory lane credit again).Lolx.Nevermind ill find job soon.Then Vino start this childish game called the musical chair.I know everyone knows this game rite?this game that we play when we were kindergarden.Lolx.So no one wanted to place but bday gal insist to play.Therefore teddy cant stand it he play chilishly along.Start the game as we all sang baba black sheep have you any wool etc.Then both of them went few round then we stop singing already teddy was like come one chair for me and one chair for you lets sit.LOLX.Goodness wasnt it darn funny.Its a pathetic game there were actually three chair when there is only two participant.Real joke then Vino started another game but unfortunately ended quite fast.Hehe when she have enough of us.Lolx.Teddy as funny as usual.Zhen ken as carzy as usual.Talking no sensel stuff.Lolx.Teddy sat on my lap darn light.Mae yan light as a feather.Miss them.Im kinda glad lots of sp ians turn up.How many r?I not sure.Hmmm lets see me,mich,anna,mae yan,jin le,pei yin,kani,vaishi,alex,thomas,wun,dao zhong,teddy,kannan,ari,kanthan,jee ho,cerrie,zhen kan,lst,kenny..anyone im missing out.I cant recall anyone already.I darn miss sp thats all i can say hope soon we will have a big reunion soon.

The end.The next post news is about ''whats wrong and whats right?''.

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Friday, July 27, 2007

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DIGNITY
All i know is dignity was everything to me.Since the day i was born thats the only thing i able to maintain in me.What do you people thing about dignity..just a word or does it means more than that.I go wild when i explode,when i cant control myself and i hate it when i cant control myself.When people cant control themself they do thing thats unexpected.Could we blame people when they go wild,out of control.Even when people knows what they are doing is wrong they still go on doing it.Why because they feel they still have their dignity.They still have their dignity in them which is somehow way more important than their soul.Why live when there is no more dignity.This style of thinking is more on japanese people not on malaysians.Even i think what japanese people did in the pass is evil i somehow really adore them how they keep their dignity,how they keep their promise and trust.Im a very stubborn gal but i hardly goes against my parents instead i rather let them know lesser about me than argue with them.I know what i did is a lil wrong because this may cause our bonding might lost.But its just a way to keep my dignity.Lots of people say just say sorry to them thats all..its simple as ABC..to me its not..the more sorry u say the more worthless is your sorry is..

To me dignity is you stay in your pace,dont effect your dignity because of any reason,no matter how much you have to lose.I lose my displin to protect my dignity.I lost my grades because of dignity.I have a black record for it.I lost how people think about me because of dignity.I even lost people that i love because of that.I even lost my ten commanment.Sometimes it runs through my mind what i did was it worth it?was it worth a while?lots of ppl think its not worth it at all..but to me its just more than that because thats all i have left standing still strong in me.

I just want to say,why want to say things you dont want to say just to keep u safe when it hurt your dignity.Like when teacher slap people people think its the best way to say sorry and get over with it because teacher are always rite.But what you feel,lost the case when you still think your rite?Why your teachers/lecturer ask you what you think about me?if you think they sucks thats what you should say why must you say things that you that you dont mean it.Might give you good grade or if you say bad thing they might write bad about you but who cares?Fine lots of people thinks its worth it lost their dignity for all this.But you also lost all the respect of people.

This topic is mostly to those who thinks those people who rebel over elder people is wrong.Think twice what if??elder might be wrong..because elder people dignity is more valueable than younger ones..I strongly disagree,i think in these days everything should be fair.Even im living in a country thats always not fair in religion,even life but thats what im try to do in future trying to be fair.We think its not fair and we want it to be fair why not try to held out a hand to help to complete this wish.Its not if we cant beat them we join them its about how valueable about us how we keep our dignity.I might be too straight forward toward people but nothing much to fear because what im saying its just the truth.

I cant tell that those people that go against over keeping dignity is important is wrong.They have their own reason.Just trying to straight things out that people that do things wrong,rebel so so called wrong they aint so wrong actually.They have their reason too.And mostly is just to keep their dignity.

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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

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i baru je hantar post i..skrang post lagi..sepatutnya esok tapi tau lar ade org tu asyik kejar i hantar karangan i..boss ni i hantar rencana i...bertajuk...
GUYS SUCKS!!!
Guys.Its not you guys but guys.Guys that makes you sprakle,makes you go pitter patter,makes u feels that you are the happiest girl in the world,makes you attarted to him until you will to do anything just to make him happy.Those type of guys im talking about.Thats the good part of guys think its time for the bad part of guys,which the precent of bad part about guys is always more than the good part.Sad but true.Guys also and always makes you cry,hurt,makes you think your not good enough for him,makes you feels its all your fault,makes you angry,makes you feels that you cant live without him,makes you feels lost,..out of control,makes you doubt why why why ??? is he reacting like this to you,is he suddenly treat you so cold.....

Is any of the line that i mention above ever happen to you?familiar rite??

Well,its normal...happens always.Again,sad but true.Guys.I cant tell the entire story about guys because the list is endless,even my relationship storys its not endless but definately will have thousands words.Today main topic is guys sucks rite,so lets start the important point..(isi penting..menanti nanti)

A girl..when she feel in love with a guy..she will do anything just to please him.Just anything.At the beginning of a relationship normal start a good relationship.A guy go after a girl then they couple bla bla bla.Then as weeks months pass,guys get tired,fed or what want to try new erm material aka girl.They just start acting WEIRD towards gals.Like they treat you differently as usual,normally will say luv u,nite muaxs..weird when..sleep tight k..then..nite...then...when u say nite..no reply already.Thats when he dont give a damn about you.I might using some harsh words but its just the facts.Then what??Gals will feel vulnerable.Eat like hell till throw out,drink,cry etc.Tell her friends all about her problem,then her friend will say what dont think so much it wont happen.Then few weeks later...break up...the truth happens.Cry like hell,think back everything she did for him..she dont want anything inreturn but his love towards her.Its so hurt that the void he left for her will last some time..like 1 or 2 years..but definately there is a scar in ur heart.Makes u more protective of yourself.Even makes you change your opinion about guys.

Im not saying that all guys sucks but unfortunately i think majority of the guys that i know and guys that i have relationship with before are majority sucks.Hurt like hell.Until i myself scared to fall deep in love.Until after being hurt i wanted revenge but its dint work because at that time i still love him.Once you totally let go of him already you wont even want to revenge you just think its so stupid of you for falling for that guy.Sometime ppl think go straight forward about how you feel towards your partner its a good way,but its also bring risk of their relationship.In relationship,having relationship with a friend also is a risk.Once u have a relationship mostly when your break up with him in a harsh way you will never have him as your friend anymore if as a friend also you will feel a lil uncomfortable when you trying to talk casual with him.

Guys,,guys guys its a pain in our neck but thats also what we enjoy rite??Think life is weird so is feeling.Love is nothing but pain we know it everyone knows it but we still want to go for it.Why i think its just that feeling we want.A feeling that we willing to sacrifise.After more pain u go through the stronger you are but you might one day get fed up too.Life is also contra..there is a bad thing and a good thing about what we do everyday.Therefore this is our life try your very best to find your happiness..do anything for it,,one day we will die..let use die with pride,happiness in our hand..never regret when our last breath.

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Sunday, July 15, 2007

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sad to say kenneth's uncle ernest recently pass away also..whats happening..everyone dying..this month how many funeral im going to go...for one thing for sure im not going to attend my own funeral..xp..choi rite..hehe..kenneth n me extreme close wan untill secondary..reason cause enough of facing rumour bout he like me i like him etc..i still rmb when we were ,,hmmm if im not mistaken we were stand 2..we recess together wan(me,carmen,kenneth) when going bck tht time (me,kenneth n thomas) stay bck lepak n we home by kenneth's grandpa transport..one bright day we were having recess ari was distubin us..aburptly he push our banch tht we were sitting..n well kenneth lips was press unto mine..thts d day d rumours started...such a memorable day y cant i forget..lolx..thts d day i started being embrassed..even when i have crushes in primary(i aint gonna tell d names xp)skl they keep sayin kenneth kenneth haizz...sad case but i must say kenneth n me v close..even thomas n me always cat n dog wif kenneth..miss those days..i still rmb there is a guys nizam or wat his name r..he was our senior..kenneth grandpa sometimes send him bck wan..i kinda fall deep crush on him..ok this wan i reveal..haha...cause i dont think much ppl know him..hehe..senior mer..xp..he is cute..his dad is police..xp..nway all lost contact ady..hmmm if can wanna c how he looks now..xp..i think some ppl arent supp to come to d world..its a waste of time..for those tht hav short life..baby?etc..meaninless life..wat for rite..haizz..i really do believe there is last life..n reborn life..like my name rene'e aka reborn in french..i think there is a reason tht i havta bare all these pain n experince..mayb last life i did some tht i deserve all this..ill find out one day
LAtest info:slyven gf i was sayin wan...her name is zayba..her religion is islamic but he is a big family tht mix,,,knew her..stand 3 i think she was a new kid..even carmen know her..we was her first fren..but she talk big tht carmen dislike her...slowly influent i also started to dislike her..untill carmen start callin her ehem ''tong sampah zayba''hehe,,actually i forget ady wan but form 2 or wat carmen was talkin bck bout d nickname tong sampah zayba when we found old pics..she v bossy wan everyday she brings expensive stuff to show off..so tht time we insult her wan..more like slut..xp..when we change class in stand 456 she went worst class ady..then most of d time we buat x kenal..some times ask hows d exam she will like great..uhuh..if great then y there years still in bad class..then upsrif i could recall hav an a only..coz d buliten rite of our skl..rited everyone result wan..tht our skl lor..kt-ians

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Saturday, July 14, 2007

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let c..i recently went to my granduncle funeral..lots of ppl there..sometimes funeral n weddings its more like far far relative all come for reunion..i met my cousin haven seen him like6 years,,wow..he shot up..i like wow..cant rmb his look..d chinese style..some of them r christian dint when for d style they din go for those roundin wif d monk etc..recall bck when my grandma funeral dun say tht i go for d roundin i also knelt down whenever ppl come n bow down at my granda pic..i even fold those 1 cent 5 cent paper..dunno lar..to me religion is ..its more like last respect my grandma wanted d chinese style so be it lor..nway i miss her..been so long ady..n her death was my cousin bday so hard to forget..haizz...
REF to d latest info:fer lynn is d fer lynn from smk bu3...d info is vvv hot,steamin..btw i got this info accidentally wan..my fren was sayin now gals also masterbate ady,,lolx.ask fer lynn bout it she is pro..pro it seems...xp..
COMIng up soon info bout who r??slyven?huh huh..sp-ians..xp

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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

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did i told you guys about this guy lets call him C''coz sum of u know him'' i have been flirting with quite some time?
nope i dont think so i told u guys about this..told anna i could recall..lolx..okie mich dont say i x loyal all k..he started it i just reply just flirt back..xp..anyway yesterday everything was over already..wanna know how it end..this is our conversation
he:dont let me hanging again r!!
me:do i always do tht..?
he:yea!!everytime i wanna go to tht section u go off9
me:coz i really hav to go mer..xp
he:its like i hav feeling but u dowan..izzit?
me:i dunno
he:okaylar.. dowan force u ady..
me:ok..
he:---------no reply---------
the end of the conversation
well its not like i fond of him lar..but well u know its kinda fun to flirt around fun when ppl make u feel 'kembang' a lil mer..but a lil sad lar..always i on9 sure hav someone to chat with..him lor..few weeks ady..everyday sure hav thing to talk wan..but when i down a lil i suddenly rmb..BFOREST..hehe..i still hav him..my cute lil erm erm bear..haha..bforest bear nice anot d name..ok mich dont tension r..xp
LATEST INFO=fer lynn actually masterbate herself..believe it or not..its d truth..nancy drew(me) nvr reveal false info..xp

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Sunday, July 08, 2007

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sob sob sob..my granduncle pass away this morning..76,,sob sob..life like a blink of an eye..gone ady..sad ler..most probably thrusday ill b going for d funeral at mlcc..real sad lar..i dunno i sudd feel..wats d meanin of livin..through all d tears laughter at d end one day we will die then wat will we b facin then??a reborn ?a new life?then we hav to face d pain again..then wats d reason of living..many ppl say once we die we will forget d pass then wat for we get experince of all this.wat for we live..wat for we giv our best shot in our life?anyone could giv me d answer..haizzz..my granduncle has been a good husband,father n grandfather..hav 8 kids,,granchilren is well uncountable..well my mom is v close wif their family..im close wif two of his kid..uncle s.l tan n aunt june..they help me alot..they sponsera quite big amount for my operation..n uncle s.l tan always says take law n he will support me all d way..cause he own a firm in kl..n another uncle also my mother side own a firm in mlcc..i dunno y..my mother side ppl is v humble they all luv my mom more than my aunt even my mom is adopted..haizz..life is jz too colourfull sumtime..my mom cryed badly when she received d news..im ponderin how long my life will b?60?70?80?..a quest without an answer,,,,,,,

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Saturday, July 07, 2007

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refer to anna..tht gal same alpha wif u ler amanda,,,hehe...nway k i din stalk her..i mean not technically..this refer to mich"not technically''..her age a lil prob..her place v easy to track down..cause..hehe..kepong mer..lolx..so its called track not stalk understand mich..xp..u know ler i like a reporter like tht like to discover...hehe..okie this case push aside first..hehe
nway..guys guys guys..even i seen lots of guys b4 r i nvr really understand them..complicated..weird..but i learn alot from them too..like ryan i blame him hate him insult him etc foul words etc..all i wanted was wat revenge..but once im in his situation i understand ady..jz its his style playboy mean playboy..if he dont play its jz not him..so diff ppl hav diff opinion..
like smoking drinkin takin estacy.....
to mich well its disaster..hehe..well its kinda lar..not much benefit...but..
to me is..its not encourage..but when ur in need when ur desperate..sad..lost in ur world..all u need was a sip of liqour..then more..will take ur mind of ur prob for awhile..so is cigg so is estacy...
but everythin tht everyone do hav a reason..so b4 i judge a person ill c y like tht?wat d reason?...

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Thursday, July 05, 2007

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haha..anna was tellin me chris saw me yesterday x say hi coz my mom n sis was there..n when anna tell chris i scared chris say bad thing bout me to d guy coz i bully chris durin kindergarden..jer lol..well d truth is i did gav chris a really a hard time..i throw his book lar..few times..haha..but when come to judgement i win..teacher will always side me..like i said..i seriously hav an innocent look...i like prasangka wif chris wan,,coz annoyin i think..lolx..my fren all x like him also..totally diff group..hehe..when i supp to take care of d class..i sure put hisname whter he talk or not..which my gang...hehe..talk lar sure their name wont b wriiten wan..xp..n when primary skl..d 6 years i nvr talk to chris..his class was d lowest class wan..always in bad class..when primary skl tht time i either d 1st or 2nd class wan..so c also we buat like tak kenal..xp..futher more he nvr able to click wif my fren..so thts life i think..i do feel a lil bitcy lar when think bck wat i did to chris but i think i wat i did was erm RIGHT..haha..sorry lar no offence lar but i like being mischief..hehe..jz i nvr get caught red handed..hehe..its jz me..renee..life play dirty u c...xp..life goes on..life is nvr fair..d facts of life...xp..

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