Hey to all my silent reader and my fella friends.;).I been extreme busy these days because my mom started selling mooncakes therefore i have to take this opportunity to help and learn from her.Furthermore my dad family been extreme busy about the new house in their hometown pahang.Three storey bungalow..lots to clean up,curtains,furniture etc.Therefore 21-24 i wont be in selangor.Ill be in pahang so sorry for any inconvenience.To all people that i know you all are most welcome to the open day.If you interested in overnight in my house you are also welcome at the third floor.Our house surely have enough place.Will be held at 23/9/07.Time 5-9.To those that cant read the card above.Tq.
Earth Quake,Life.How much is life worth??
My apartment felt the shake.I felt it while i was online.I felt my comp shaking.At the beginning i thought i felt giddy a little because of the stress that i had during class.Suddenly my dad felt giddy too.Curious.Later shake even worst then heard other residents yelling about earth quake,open the door saw lots of residents running down with their bags,pets,important belongings.I just took my Id,hp and ran down.
Yesterday,12 Sept shake during the evening.I recall back 11 Sept at that very moment.Recall back how many people died because of the World Trade Centre collapse.Fear suddenly appear.What is happening ??Another wake up call??
Everything settle down at night then early in the morning today 13 Sept.Earth shake again,pondering is this a damn joke or what??Anyway most of the resident ran down,i wasn't because suddenly i have a strong feeling.A feeling that say ''if its time for me to die,let it be,let it happen''.Faith or you guys think Ive fed up with life.Lolx.Its not that its just that i started to believe faith.I started to believe faith since 16 Dec 1999.After my life was in risk,my very first operation,without any planning,was just a little gal with bright future without any sickness etc just an ordinary gal with full of challenges ahead in life.Did i ever told you who was i before i had my my life was in risk.;).Let me roughly brief you.I was a gal in a good school,timing is packed with classes music,art,ballet,abacus,src,tuition etc.Its either people challenge me or i challenge them that's my life in a good school before my life was in risk.
After my first operation i change alot.I started to go church very often i started being religious.Started to believe in faith.Praying everyday for my life.Challenging i must say.Its not from people but from God.Challenge me with my life.I let go everything every class i have to let go.I wasn't an ordinary kid anymore.Life was 24/7 was in risk.I was just a kid then i took it as a challenge,with confident,nothing is impossible i thought till i collapse at 2002.I was in hell pain.I cant talk i cant do anything i felt paralyse.I cry without tears because i cant even cry properly.Friends from church,relatives waiting outside of the operation theater.Damn it as if i could feel touched.Seriously all i could think of is what??challenging i don't think so.I felt like kneeling down to Jesus asking for giving me my life back that's all i wanted.Ill appreciate my life ahead.That time i remember that my parents talking to the doctor that if i could be save high chance ill be paralyse.Because the operation was again stroke not planned.I fear i couldn't take it being paralyse I'm not that strong to accept that.Recall back i told my mom if like that then why live on.I fear i don't know what to do only think i can do is pray.When i woke up my entire body were tied full of jab hanging with liquids.10 perhaps even my leg was hanging liquids.Miracle happen again i wasn't paralyse my entire body could move normally even my memory was still there.Even my doctor say its a miracle.But then they wasn't sure if my abnormal vessel was still there or not.
But now you could see,I'm living like any ordinary teen.Just like i always says my life is colourful.My life that been through risks i counted as another point in my colourful life.Not every teen at my age been through all this.I know no one wants to go through those pain.But those pain have their benefit of their own.I have more right to advise people that going through life in risk.They rather hear from people been through it than those that haven,I know it because i never took advise from those that never felt the pain that i had before.Talk is always easy they never felt one stitch before how to compare with the stitch that i been through.Not to be cold hearted but that's the feeling you will had when you are suffering the pain.In another way we must live on no matter what.People say if you cant beat them join them.If you cant change them change yourself,if you cant change their thinking change your thinking towards it.Life is either you want it to be black and white or let it be colourful...........................
Unconditional Love
A treasure to be cherished,
A gift from God above,
Is the beauty of a friendship,
Touched by unconditional love,
A love that ask no question,
Believe in all best,
Never doubting,ever trusting,
Withstanding any test,
A love that weathers any storm,
And yet that love still stands,
Through the very darkest hour,
It still reaches out a hand,
There in that hand the sweetest gift,
That you can give a friend,
A heart that cares,a love that shares,
That will be there till the end,
A treasure to be cherished,
A gift from God above,
Is what i share with you my friend,
An unconditional love
klcc gallery.Wasn't allowed to take photo but i able to take one to let you guys think is it worth to give it a visit.Nothing much seriously,boring,plain but its mainly for the 50th merdeka and i think they dump quite a sum of money on it.Admission is free so why not being patriotic a little and give it a visit
Love Worth How Much??
We love someone with all our heart but not necessary that we will be loved back.We might love someone just a little but sometimes we will be showered with alot of love back.So how much is love??Could we divide it??Could we make it fair and square??50% and I'm hoping for 50% back??I don't think so love is ever fair.Don't you think so?.Love is uncountable aka unconditional love.
Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get,its what you expected to give...which is everything.Willing to sacrifice.That is included to sacrifice your time your tears your effort your mind.All that you are giving..not necessary you are getting anything back..maybe you will get nothing back but pain and hurt.Love is never fair you wont even get back your cost that you invest in it.Lolx.
So to those that is wasting their time on loving someone,hurt,investing alot,don't ever cross your mind ''is it worth it''.Because you will never get the answer.Unless you want to judge it yourself.There is no main theory whether is it worth it or not.We don't even know how much it value.If you keep asking yourself is it worth it you will feel regret and more depress why not just do what you want to do.Follow your heart sometimes.
I'm in this dilemma asking what the hell are you doing now.I answered myself ''i i i don't know all i know is I'm doing what i want what my heart says..everything that i do its all not planned..more like let it naturally flow''.Sometimes i don't even know what I'm doing is right or wrong or the path that I'm walking i don't even know whether it leads me to hell or heaven.But if i don't go on walking ill never know ill be just stuck in the middle or the way and soon will be dead there flat.With regret why not trying a or b road why not risk it.Life is a all about risk rite?So is love...love is all about riskkkk...... its bloody idiot pain thats what it mostly brings.
Why not risk it all sometimes.Hurt.Pain.Happy.Sad.Depress.Disappointment.Fedup.Frustrated.Etc.
At less one thing I'm sure is that once we experience when people talk about it and making big fuss about it we can just lay back and smile.Just one of my experience my history.Without curiosity's.;)
True Love
What is true love?It is commonly portrayed as that warm,engaged rapture that lifts you about a foot off the ground,makes your eyes sparkle,makes your heart goes pitter patter.A person ''in love'' thinks of beloved constantly and cannot get enough time together.Even sleep gives no rest.
This definition of true love creates a great deal of disappointment and disillusionment for modern people.As we all know the intensity of an ''in love'' experience changes and will also changes our feeling toward ''in love''.
Experiences in love makes you more matured toward your relationship and able to make you feel love is nothing but lust.I cant say that i have everyone to agree with my theory but after all I'm just an ordinary teen..am i? just maybe my life is just a little too colourful.
Lets say since secondary school i changed a lot ;) My first love make me hmmm the happiest gal in the world when what he did to me is just small little things.Haha that time was beginner what..so its normal rite.Not long i was ehem ditch or dump 'which my friend prefer that word'.But i was still naive,i fall in love again with another jock...madly in love soon he ditch me.It took me quite long to get over him that void he left me.Then i hock with an innocent fella,i have not much feeling for him but i wanted to get over my past so i thought it will work but no.He love me more than i love him ''did i love him i doubt''.My mom or lots of people says that we must find a person that love you more than you love him.But you just don't have the desire of wanting,to see him,don't even makes your heart goes pitter patter,even how nice he treat you you wont feel that extreme touch which you will have with someone you love.Then i ditch him and felt very guilty.Then i hock with another guy''he totally not involve with football,i was relief;)''but because of I'm going for NS i ask for break because i don't believe in long distance love anymore and since i been ditch twice i start having the habit to flirt.More like my daily routine.But like i say should i blame people that ditch me or thank them.Flirt with no commitment,no tears,no hurt.....life goes on as i move on;) .I start to care more about my heart,i don't want to feel hurt anymore,even now i don't feel secure in all things,like i say still have to move on rite?.Is it love or is it just sexual desire?i doubt sometimes??Love sometimes fear me...
Love is like a bed of roses,there are many thorns.The path to love lies in learning to avoid the thorns,while enjoying the roses.;)
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