"les jours passent mais la mémoire jamais ne s'efface"

Friday, September 14, 2007

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Earth Quake,Life.How much is life worth??
My apartment felt the shake.I felt it while i was online.I felt my comp shaking.At the beginning i thought i felt giddy a little because of the stress that i had during class.Suddenly my dad felt giddy too.Curious.Later shake even worst then heard other residents yelling about earth quake,open the door saw lots of residents running down with their bags,pets,important belongings.I just took my Id,hp and ran down.

Yesterday,12 Sept shake during the evening.I recall back 11 Sept at that very moment.Recall back how many people died because of the World Trade Centre collapse.Fear suddenly appear.What is happening ??Another wake up call??

Everything settle down at night then early in the morning today 13 Sept.Earth shake again,pondering is this a damn joke or what??Anyway most of the resident ran down,i wasn't because suddenly i have a strong feeling.A feeling that say ''if its time for me to die,let it be,let it happen''.Faith or you guys think Ive fed up with life.Lolx.Its not that its just that i started to believe faith.I started to believe faith since 16 Dec 1999.After my life was in risk,my very first operation,without any planning,was just a little gal with bright future without any sickness etc just an ordinary gal with full of challenges ahead in life.Did i ever told you who was i before i had my my life was in risk.;).Let me roughly brief you.I was a gal in a good school,timing is packed with classes music,art,ballet,abacus,src,tuition etc.Its either people challenge me or i challenge them that's my life in a good school before my life was in risk.

After my first operation i change alot.I started to go church very often i started being religious.Started to believe in faith.Praying everyday for my life.Challenging i must say.Its not from people but from God.Challenge me with my life.I let go everything every class i have to let go.I wasn't an ordinary kid anymore.Life was 24/7 was in risk.I was just a kid then i took it as a challenge,with confident,nothing is impossible i thought till i collapse at 2002.I was in hell pain.I cant talk i cant do anything i felt paralyse.I cry without tears because i cant even cry properly.Friends from church,relatives waiting outside of the operation theater.Damn it as if i could feel touched.Seriously all i could think of is what??challenging i don't think so.I felt like kneeling down to Jesus asking for giving me my life back that's all i wanted.Ill appreciate my life ahead.That time i remember that my parents talking to the doctor that if i could be save high chance ill be paralyse.Because the operation was again stroke not planned.I fear i couldn't take it being paralyse I'm not that strong to accept that.Recall back i told my mom if like that then why live on.I fear i don't know what to do only think i can do is pray.When i woke up my entire body were tied full of jab hanging with liquids.10 perhaps even my leg was hanging liquids.Miracle happen again i wasn't paralyse my entire body could move normally even my memory was still there.Even my doctor say its a miracle.But then they wasn't sure if my abnormal vessel was still there or not.

But now you could see,I'm living like any ordinary teen.Just like i always says my life is colourful.My life that been through risks i counted as another point in my colourful life.Not every teen at my age been through all this.I know no one wants to go through those pain.But those pain have their benefit of their own.I have more right to advise people that going through life in risk.They rather hear from people been through it than those that haven,I know it because i never took advise from those that never felt the pain that i had before.Talk is always easy they never felt one stitch before how to compare with the stitch that i been through.Not to be cold hearted but that's the feeling you will had when you are suffering the pain.In another way we must live on no matter what.People say if you cant beat them join them.If you cant change them change yourself,if you cant change their thinking change your thinking towards it.Life is either you want it to be black and white or let it be colourful...........................

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:: Me ::
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My name is Rene'e.
Regardless of age,sex,creed,denomination n religion.
I think every1 of us hav our own compelling story worth 2 tell.
My story is v colourfull.
thts 4 me 2 know 4 u 2 find out.
I view diff ppl wif diff light.
I feel more compassion 4 d ppl around me.
I think we might hav lil in common n even less 2 agree on..y not we put our diff aside n find friendship tht lasts a lifetime.

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