"les jours passent mais la mémoire jamais ne s'efface"

Friday, October 26, 2007

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A Hot Cup Of Coffee

All i need now is a hot cup of coffee.Coffee without sugar or creamer will suits my mood for the week.Bitter but it taste as good as ever.Bitter explain it all.Family's,Friendship,Relationship,Social etc our daily routine is sometimes or actually always bitter our day.Our high expectation makes our life harder to go on.Forgive and forget is one of the harder principal to keep as you all know that its extremely easy to break.

I always think 'why' are they so unconsidered,unreasonable,irrationally.After all we are related,after all we have been friends for so long,after all i trusted you,after all i took you as a close friend,after all we been so long together etc.Hurt is all we get in return sometimes.

All of a sudden i sat down have a hot cup of coffee and think deeply.Its my expectation and disappointment that brings me to hurt.Why must i so foolish to have high expectation on them.I ought to have expectation on myself not them.Its not their fault that is who they are.

My mom always remind be don't be so naive,so quickly trust people they will hurt you.It happens to since i was a little kid.My expectation was from 101% to 40%.Its very bad for me but unfortunately my mom claim it supposed to be 0.00%.Well i still have expectation as i believe its unfair for those people out there that ought to have expectation.Even national service i have high expectation on them but they let me down.They disappointed me.As i ask other people in other camp majority its a very normal thing to happen.Happens to a lot of people to.So this is life isn't it.The reality that i seems to loath.

Turn to who when I'm in uncertainty,fear,darkness,lost and despair.Open the bible and recall back what happen to Job and ill feel much better.I might have been through a lot of pain,hurt,suffering and despair but i never can compare to Job a person that i admire from the start when i open the bible.As life is bitter and sweet just like coffee its bitter but a lot of people enjoy it.The bitter the better.

Praise the Lord in the Highest of Heavens. He supplies our guides and teachers at the exact moment we are ready. When we are still, we feel His loving arms surround us. His love presses in. His spirit washes us, heals us, and we are made whole. We then are ready for the next step in His learning for us. We accept the awesome miracle of grace. We cling to it in times of uncertainty, fear, darkness,lost and despair. We learn to release our fear and anxiety and lay them at the feet of our Savior.

:: the time moved on` ::*|11:07 PM|

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:: Me ::
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My name is Rene'e.
Regardless of age,sex,creed,denomination n religion.
I think every1 of us hav our own compelling story worth 2 tell.
My story is v colourfull.
thts 4 me 2 know 4 u 2 find out.
I view diff ppl wif diff light.
I feel more compassion 4 d ppl around me.
I think we might hav lil in common n even less 2 agree on..y not we put our diff aside n find friendship tht lasts a lifetime.

:: Likes/Often ::
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Travel
Eating
Cooking
Musics
Art

:: collections ::
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Braclets
Crystals
Frogs
Keychains
Stamps
Wild Animals Fosils

:: tracking ::
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