I was actually getting married withing a week and everything is done..d gown d restaurant d rings d photos..etc..its all done..but within that week we both wanted freedom without commitment during that week so we agree..but this guy that I'm going to marry "he dashing..6abs like i wanted of a guy..but i love him more than he love me..-.-.."

So as i started my 'freedom without commitment week' i bump into my ex..n omg-osh was he ever more cute..lolx..we talk we walk n we start dating..double date..'obviously he n me dint ask each other whether we r taken or not..'..so i dint tell him anything about my wedding within a week..

There is also 2 guys that interested with me but they never dare to confront..they send me presents roses..but they nvr dare to make d first move..so these guys they know about me getting married soon..one day i went yam cha with my friends included them lar..sudd my friend ask me eh actually what so good bout ur future husband r that u pick him over these 2'pointing at them'.. i like huh..they??..they nvr say they like me..o.o..how to pick!!..those 2 guys kept quite..i told my friend..'I'm not those that make first more wan..i don't have guts or what u guys wanna claim..but i just wont'..as time past.. d 7 day came..

My ex that 7 day sudd told me that he is going to get married tmr..i was like -.-..uh huh..he like 'ur not shock'..i said 'hmmm no..guess not..but we did hav fun dint we??'..he replied 'yes we did unfortunately we been separated for years..we lost contact etc we cant just turn back time..'..i like 'okie..seriously its okie with me'..then as he walk me home he kissed me and before he left he call me 'Renee..i always love u'....i just smiled

My wedding day !!i was busy getting ready etc we have our traditional culture 'parents drink tea etc' then its time for wedding dinner 'd' most shocking thing is my ex wedding dinner n my wedding dinner was held at d same restaurant..o.O..d restaurant have 3floor..and i was 3rd floor and he was at d 2nd floor..o.O..well I'm not shock but he was shock when he c me..'coz i din tell him that I'm getting married' but of course we just 'buat tak kenal'..act as if we don't know each other..but i surely do know a sum of his friend attending d wedding..

Then at d bride room aka my room d 2 guys that interested with me went in my room..and ask..'what if both of us dare to ask u will u b one of us lover..or what if we ask will u marry one of us..who will u pick??'..i was speech-less then my brides maid whisper to me 'ren both of them love u more than u love them..don't u think its better..this guy ur going to marry i doubt he love u any more than 50%..and this 2 guys is more dashing,rich!!,and they love u ren..'..without thinking i reply them 'i wont pick either one of u..because i love my future husband..or should i say my husband now even i know that he don't love me as much as i love him..even he don't place me as first priority in his heart ..i don't mind..d thing is i love him..love him dearly'

As i was going out to cut d cake i felt sad..i felt my heart was heavy..then i WOKE UP!!!

gosh i already said that i don't want to marry with a guy that love me less than i love him..y d dream is totally opposite and even i have options..roar...its horrible wei..roarr..and sorry I'm not revealing who is in d dream..haha..well u guys know who is d ex,husband..etc..even d bride's maid ..keke..blek..but its a dream rite..if its in reality..I'LL PICK EITHER ONE OUT OF THOSE TWO..;)..dream n reality decision making is totally diff u c guys..;)i refuse to marry a guy that x put me first priority..blek..;)